If I didn�t have $5000 worth of hard work on magnetic tape in the back seat of my car tonight, I considered driving my car into a tree on the way home. They are going to repossess it if I don�t pay it soon. Unfortunately, I was going to give a friend some money tomorrow night, and pay my phone bill, and maybe buy some drugs, so won�t be paying it. Anyway, so my rationale was, if I run my car into a tree and total it, I have the option of totaling it, as well as the chance of serious harm to my body, which was the more delicious option I was looking at in the face. Today I had this pain in the left side of my chest for a little while, and I had to sit down. I ignore this shit, hoping to perhaps fall over so I don�t have to finish all the paper work on my desk, or pay anymore bills, or deal with people. Emotionally, and physically, I purposely get myself into shit that is really, really bad for me. Today, I told Reina that I am really fucked up, and I�m really not a nice person. She didn�t believe me. I wish I could admit some of the shit I do week by week, day by day. My karma is certainly in awful shape. I stole tens of thousands of dollars before, I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I just don�t have any respect for anyone basically. I�d like to think I could cheat on girls, because I don�t trust them. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I don�t chalk it up as �I hate girls� though, I just don�t put any faith or hope into anything, or anyone anymore. I never will again. There is no possible fucking way, at 32, I am going to learn to trust someone I am close to like that. People will tell me to just do it. You have to just learn to trust people. Sorry, it doesn�t happen like that in hell, only in heaven. I need to get fucked up right now. I need to get fucked up right now. I am going out of my fucking head right now. I have been talking to myself over and over. Everyone at work keeps asking me if everything is okay, as I sit at my desk and stare off into space, not doing a fucking thing all day. I want someone to shoot me in the face when I come home at night. Those fucks outside, I want them to finally just come in here and stab me to death, like Nicole Simpson. I have no gate though. I ain�t fucking no big football star. I want to live forever. I want to live like this forever. I want to always feel like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like how this feels. I like when my head makes me think too much. I like when they tell me one thing, and I hear something else. The band is doing great, we made a great recording that everyone loves and wants to show people. I wish I could play it for you, reader. Send me 20 dollars, and�my chest hurts again. Perhaps because I have smoked 5 cigarettes in a row while writing this relatively short thing. I hate girls. I love fucking. I love women. I like the company of girls more often than not. I like how I can feel comfortable and always have something to talk about with the girls. I like that I can go home and sleep nice when I spend a nice night out with a friend who happens to be a female. I like the company. I like the boys, not in a gay kind of way. The thought of lesbians, gay men, etc. makes me want to throw up sometimes. I can�t get turned on by it. I don�t hate gay people, I just think fuck. I magin imagine that if I make it through the yrea I wil make it thourh the year. They wanted to take us to eat, and we declined, we were tired. I fucked this guys wife. That night. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Why all of a sudden is there a rash of children abductions across the country right now? I think the media is just out of shit to talk about, so they are finding more stories to tell. This shit probably has always been happening. It�s just, why the fuck would some guy in Maine, care about someone being abducted in South Dakota? Well, if he ha sany sort of ethical bone in his body, then of course he would care. SO they tell it like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I looked in the mirror today and said I tell about ten lies a day. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I then went out into the office and didn�t look at the ass of the human resources woman. This is a lie, as I like to look at her ass. I am a liar, and I love to XXXXXXXXXXXX. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. South Dakota. Check this out though: I am in this karma thing right now where I hurt someone, then I get hurt. Right now, I am the one about to be hurt. I have no idea what I should wear. What should I wear to the hurting? I am getting fat, and haven�t exercised in months. I will die like this. Fortunately, I am praying to someone that I live forever. How I got sucked into this is beyond me. I don�t want to get hurt again. This is how I do it though. I pay money. I might as well take the hammer over there, and bash myself in the pelvic bone with it. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Listening to the words that come out of my mouth, how fucking full of shit can one person be? Let�s sing about getting high, and about some stupid fucking girl that broke you for a week. I�m over her. I�m over her. I�m over her. See? They are chasing Seymour Cassel with a handgun, they will shoot him is he is not careful. I wonder if Nina hit her brother again tonight. I mean the other way around. He hit her. They make promises, me, them, and none of them are ever fulfilled. I got away with murder for a few months, and then they found out, trned me ovr to the police. The girls who judge that I no longer see or talk to, they judge me. Looking at the facts though, yeah, I�m dead wrong. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like the 4AM air in here. I just decided to get fucked up, so I inhaled Glade. Well, I sprayed it in here as the smoke is getting to my pet. My pet. My pet. Say that. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. �this is bad, so bad. When I am not fucked up now, I feel so fucking fucked up. When I am not fucked up on something, I feel fucked up. Who the fuck invented that rule, was that that jesssus guy? There�s not even a spec of resin in here. The expensice people though, they gave me things. Just a tast. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. The best way for me to avoid issues is to avoid issues. I like to think that if I die tonight, like in my sleep or something, they will breathe a sigh of relief, hence me smoking a pack of cigarettes in an hour. I like to think that if I keep gaining weight , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I will eventually be so unhealthy. I do so many unhealthy things emotionally. I get attached to people I don�t know. I develop feelings for people who don�t really exist. I love ghosts. I LOVE GHOITS. GHOISTS GHOSTS I MEAN. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. SHE WOULD SHOW UP AT THE HOUSE TO FUCK TIM NIGHTLY TIM WOULD FUCK HER NIGHTLY SHE WOULD SHOW UP THERE WITH NO MONEY IN HER POCKET, DO SOME SORT OF MAGIC TRICK, AND BE ON HER MERRY WAY. SHE WOULD COME TO MY HOUSE, LATE AT NIGHT, VERY FUCKING LATE AT NIGHT, AND OFFER ME A DRINK. SHE WOULD OFFER ME PEACE. SHE OFFERED THINGS THAT PEOPLE DON�T GENERALLY OFFER. Let me get one thing straight. I will never, ever, ever, ever, say anything that means anything important in here. I have this journal on my hard drive. I keep it away from nosey people. There are a lot of you nosey people out there. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. If I wanted people to know what I was thinking, then I would let them read it. Can you imagine actually taking an online journal serious? I can�t imagine it. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. It�s like putting a password on it. Why would you do that? , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. The noise out there is immense. If there isn�t something or someone out there, I will pay someone 9 million dollars. If I go into that bank tomorrow, the credit union that is. I will bring a cake or something and say things like �don�t take my car away, you have such beautiful eyes� I really know how to knock women out. Ask them. Ask the women of my life. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. Ask them how I treat(ed) them. Ask them. I�m good when I�m being a good father. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I am going to take a tour, a tour of the inside of my brain right. Seriously though, Ask the women of my life Ask the women of my life Ask the women of my life. I have so little to do, and so much to say. Who wants to tell the truth anymore. Who the fuck are people who think they are honest because they can voice their opinions. I could give a fuck about opinions. I could give a fuck about school, and this persons issues with their girlfriend, and that persons issues with their job. I am here to talk some sort of nonsense when I need to. This release. The new one. I will make a fair trade. I will no longer sacrifice myself to this. My eyes get heavy this late, but it feels so fucking good to be alive right now. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Please don�t trust me, any of you. Please don�t. I hope thye sort of stop or something. I am no good. Really. There is no reason. I have a sense of humor, and apparently, I am a sweet boy. I always want the woman to get off before me. I just feel sick right now. I feel sick, and nobody believes me. check this out. Soundtrack � Jack Teagarden � Makin� Friends If I didn�t have $5000 worth of hard work on magnetic tape in the back seat of my car tonight, I considered driving my car into a tree on the way home. They are going to repossess it if I don�t pay it soon. Unfortunately, I was going to give a friend some money tomorrow night, and pay my phone bill, and maybe buy some drugs, so won�t be paying it. Anyway, so my rationale was, if I run my car into a tree and total it, I have the option of totaling it, as well as the chance of serious harm to my body, which was the more delicious option I was looking at in the face. Today I had this pain in the left side of my chest for a little while, and I had to sit down. I ignore this shit, hoping to perhaps fall over so I don�t have to finish all the paper work on my desk, or pay anymore bills, or deal with people. Emotionally, and physically, I purposely get myself into shit that is really, really bad for me. Today, I told Reina that I am really fucked up, and I�m really not a nice person. She didn�t believe me. I wish I could admit some of the shit I do week by week, day by day. My karma is certainly in awful shape. I stole tens of thousands of dollars before, I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I just don�t have any respect for anyone basically. I�d like to think I could cheat on girls, because I don�t trust them. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I don�t chalk it up as �I hate girls� though, I just don�t put any faith or hope into anything, or anyone anymore. I never will again. There is no possible fucking way, at 32, I am going to learn to trust someone I am close to like that. People will tell me to just do it. You have to just learn to trust people. Sorry, it doesn�t happen like that in hell, only in heaven. I need to get fucked up right now. I need to get fucked up right now. I am going out of my fucking head right now. I have been talking to myself over and over. Everyone at work keeps asking me if everything is okay, as I sit at my desk and stare off into space, not doing a fucking thing all day. I want someone to shoot me in the face when I come home at night. Those fucks outside, I want them to finally just come in here and stab me to death, like Nicole Simpson. I have no gate though. I ain�t fucking no big football star. I want to live forever. I want to live like this forever. I want to always feel like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like how this feels. I like when my head makes me think too much. I like when they tell me one thing, and I hear something else. The band is doing great, we made a great recording that everyone loves and wants to show people. I wish I could play it for you, reader. Send me 20 dollars, and�my chest hurts again. Perhaps because I have smoked 5 cigarettes in a row while writing this relatively short thing. I hate girls. I love fucking. I love women. I like the company of girls more often than not. I like how I can feel comfortable and always have something to talk about with the girls. I like that I can go home and sleep nice when I spend a nice night out with a friend who happens to be a female. I like the company. I like the boys, not in a gay kind of way. The thought of lesbians, gay men, etc. makes me want to throw up sometimes. I can�t get turned on by it. I don�t hate gay people, I just think fuck. I magin imagine that if I make it through the yrea I wil make it thourh the year. They wanted to take us to eat, and we declined, we were tired. I fucked this guys wife. That night. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Why all of a sudden is there a rash of children abductions across the country right now? I think the media is just out of shit to talk about, so they are finding more stories to tell. This shit probably has always been happening. It�s just, why the fuck would some guy in Maine, care about someone being abducted in South Dakota? Well, if he ha sany sort of ethical bone in his body, then of course he would care. SO they tell it like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I looked in the mirror today and said I tell about ten lies a day. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I then went out into the office and didn�t look at the ass of the human resources woman. This is a lie, as I like to look at her ass. I am a liar, and I love to XXXXXXXXXXXX. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. South Dakota. Check this out though: I am in this karma thing right now where I hurt someone, then I get hurt. Right now, I am the one about to be hurt. I have no idea what I should wear. What should I wear to the hurting? GETTHEFUCKOUTOFMYHEADI am getting fat, and haven�t exercised in months. I will die like this. Fortunately, I am praying to someone that I live forever. How I got sucked into this is beyond me. I don�t want to get hurt again. This is how I do it though. I pay money. I might as well take the hammer over there, and bash myself in the pelvic bone with it. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. GETTHEFUCKOUTOFMYHEADI EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. 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I�m over her. See? They are chasing Seymour Cassel with a handgun, they will shoot him is he is not careful. I wonder if Nina hit her brother again tonight. GETTHEFUCKOUTOFMYHEADI GETTHEFUCKOUTOFMYHEADI I mean the other way around. He hit her. They make promises, me, them, and none of them are ever fulfilled. I got away with murder for a few months, and then they found out, trned me ovr to the police.GETTHEFUCKOUTOFMYHEADI The girls who judge that I no longer see or talk to, they judge me. Looking at the facts though, yeah, I�m dead wrong. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like the 4AM air in here. I just decided to get fucked up, so I inhaled Glade. Well, I sprayed it in here as the smoke is getting to my pet. My pet. My pet. Say that. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated Every single girl I have dated Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. �this is bad, so bad. When I am not fucked up now, I feel so fucking fucked up. When I am not fucked up on something, I feel fucked up. Who the fuck invented that rule, was that that jesssus guy? There�s not even a spec of resin in here. The expensice people though, they gave me things. Just a tast. Every OUT OUT OUT OUT OUT OUTsingle girl I have dated Every single girl I have dated Every single girl I have dated They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. The best way for me to avoid issues is to avoid issues. I like to think that if I die tonight, TEN FUCKING TIMES TEN FUCKING TIMES NOW!!!!!!!!!!like in my sleep or something, they will breathe a sigh of relief, hence me smoking a pack of cigarettes in an hour. I like to think that if I keep gaining weight , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I will eventually be so unhealthy. I do so many unhealthy things emotionally. I get attached to people I don�t know. I develop feelings for people who don�t really exist. I love ghosts. I LOVE GHOITS. GHOISTS GHOSTS I MEAN. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. SHE WOULD SHOW UP AT THE HOUSE TO FUCK TIM NIGHTLY TIM WOULD FUCK HER NIGHTLY SHE WOULD SHOW UP THERE WITH NO MONEY IN HER POCKET, DO SOME SORT OF MAGIC TRICK, AND BE ON HER MERRY WAY. SHE WOULD COME TO MY HOUSE, LATE AT NIGHT, VERY FUCKING LATE AT NIGHT, AND OFFER ME A DRINK. SHE WOULD OFFER ME PEACE. SHE OFFERED THINGS THAT PEOPLE DON�T GENERALLY OFFER. Let me get one thing straight. I will never, ever, ever, ever, say anything that means anything important in here. I have this journal on my hard drive. I keep it away from nosey people. There are a lot of you nosey people out there. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. If I wanted people to know what I was thinking, then I would let them read it. Can you imagine actually taking an online journal serious? I can�t imagine it. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. It�s like putting a password on it. Why would you do that? , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. The noise out there is immense. If there isn�t something or someone out there, I will pay someone 9 million dollars. If I go into that bank tomorrow, the credit union that is. I will bring a cake or something and say things like �don�t take my car away, you have such beautiful eyes� I really know how to knock women out. Ask them. Ask the women of my life. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. Ask them how I treat(ed) them. Ask them. I�m good when I�m being a good father. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I am going to take a tour, a tour of the inside of my brain right. Seriously though, Ask the women of my life Ask the women of my life Ask the women of my life. I have so little to do, and so much to say. Who wants to tell the truth anymore. Who the fuck are people who think they are honest because they can voice their opinions. I could give a fuck about opinions. I could give a fuck about school, and this persons issues with their girlfriend, and that persons issues with their job. I am here to talk some sort of nonsense when I need to. This release. The new one. I will make a fair trade. I will no longer sacrifice myself to this. My eyes get heavy this late, but it feels so fucking good to be alive right now. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Please don�t trust me, any of you. Please don�t. I hope thye sort of stop or something. I am no good. Really. There is no reason. I have a sense of humor, and apparently, I am a sweet boy. I always want the woman to get off before me. I just feel sick right now. I feel sick, and nobody believes me. check this out. Soundtrack � Jack Teagarden � Makin� Friends If I didn�t have $5000 worth of hard work on magnetic tape in the back seat of my car tonight, I considered driving my car into a tree on the way home. They are going to repossess it if I don�t pay it soon. Unfortunately, I was going to give a friend some money tomorrow night, and pay my phone bill, and maybe buy some drugs, so won�t be paying it. Anyway, so my rationale was, if I run my car into a tree and total it, I have the option of totaling it, as well as the chance of serious harm to my body, which was the more delicious option I was looking at in the face. Today I had this pain in the left side of my chest for a little while, and I had to sit down. I ignore this shit, hoping to perhaps fall over so I don�t have to finish all the paper work on my desk, or pay anymore bills, or deal with people. Emotionally, and physically, I purposely get myself into shit that is really, really bad for me. Today, I told Reina that I am really fucked up, and I�m really not a nice person. She didn�t believe me. I wish I could admit some of the shit I do week by week, day by day. My karma is certainly in awful shape. I stole tens of thousands of dollars before, I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I just don�t have any respect for anyone basically. I�d like to think I could cheat on girls, because I don�t trust them. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I don�t chalk it up as �I hate girls� though, I just don�t put any faith or hope into anything, or anyone anymore. I THINK THAT THEY WILL TELL ME EVERYTHING IS OKAY, THERE ARE WOMEN THAT WILL DO THAT FOR ME SOME OF THEM LOVE ME OR SO THEY SAY I never will again. There is no possible fucking way, at 32, I am going to learn to trust someone I am close to like that. People will tell me to just do it. You have to just learn to trust people. Sorry, it doesn�t happen like that in hell, only in heaven. I need to get fucked up right now. I need to get fucked up right now. I am going out of my fucking head right now. I have been talking to myself over and over. I WILL NOT SAY THAT THOUGH! Everyone at work keeps asking me if everything is okay, as I sit at my desk and stare off into space, not doing a fucking thing all day. I want someone to shoot me in the face when I come home at night. Those fucks outside, I want them to finally just come in here and stab me to death, like Nicole Simpson. I have no gate though. I ain�t fucking no big football star. I want to live forever. I want to live like this forever. I want to always feel like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like how this feels. I like when my head makes me think too much. I like when they tell me one thing, and I hear something else. The band is doing great, we made a great recording that everyone loves and wants to show people. I wish I could play it for you, reader. Send me 20 dollars, and�my chest hurts again. Perhaps because I have smoked 5 cigarettes in a row while writing this relatively short thing. I hate girls. I love fucking. I love women. I like the company of girls more often than not. I like how I can feel comfortable and always have something to talk about with the girls. I like that I can go home and sleep nice when I spend a nice night out with a friend who happens to be a female. I like the company. I like the boys, not in a gay kind of way. The thought of lesbians, gay men, etc. makes me want to throw up sometimes. I can�t get turned on by it. I don�t hate gay people, I just think fuck. I magin imagine that if I make it through the yrea I wil make it thourh the year. They wanted to take us to eat, and we declined, we were tired. I fucked this guys wife. That night. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Why all of a sudden is there a rash of children abductions across the country right now? I think the media is just out of shit to talk about, so they are finding more stories to tell. This shit probably has always been happening. It�s just, why the fuck would some guy in Maine, care about someone being abducted in South Dakota? Well, if he ha sany sort of ethical bone in his body, then of course he would care. SO they tell it like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I looked in the mirror today and said I tell about ten lies a day. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I then went out into the office and didn�t look at the ass of the human resources woman. This is a lie, as I like to look at her ass. I am a liar, and I love to XXXXXXXXXXXX. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. South Dakota. Check this out though: I am in this karma thing right now where I hurt someone, then I get hurt. Right now, I am the one about to be hurt. I have no idea what I should wear. What should I wear to the hurting? I am getting fat, and haven�t exercised in months. I will die like this. Fortunately, I am praying to someone that I live forever. How I got sucked into this is beyond me. I don�t want to get hurt again. This is how I do it though. I pay money. I might as well take the hammer over there, and bash myself in the pelvic bone with it. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Listening to the words that come out of my mouth, how fucking full of shit can one person be? Let�s sing about getting high, and about some stupid fucking girl that broke you for a week. I�m over her. I�m over her. I�m over her. See? They are chasing Seymour Cassel with a handgun, they will shoot him is he is not careful. I wonder if Nina hit her brother again tonight. I mean the other way around. He hit her. They make promises, me, them, and none of them are ever fulfilled. I got away with murder for a few months, and then they found out, trned me ovr to the police. The girls who judge that I no longer see or talk to, they judge me. Looking at the facts though, yeah, I�m dead wrong. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like the 4AM air in here. I just decided to get fucked up, so I inhaled Glade. Well, I sprayed it in here as the smoke is getting to my pet. My pet. My pet. Say that. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. �this is bad, so bad. When I am not fucked up now, I feel so fucking fucked up. When I am not fucked up on something, I feel fucked up. Who the fuck invented that rule, was that that jesssus guy? There�s not even a spec of resin in here. The expensice people though, they gave me things. Just a tast. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. The best way for me to avoid issues is to avoid issues. I like to think that if I die tonight, like in my sleep or something, they will breathe a sigh of relief, hence me smoking a pack of cigarettes in an hour. I like to think that if I keep gaining weight , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I will eventually be so unhealthy. I do so many unhealthy things emotionally. I get attached to people I don�t know. I develop feelings for people who don�t really exist. I love ghosts. I LOVE GHOITS. GHOISTS GHOSTS I MEAN. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. SHE WOULD SHOW UP AT THE HOUSE TO FUCK TIM NIGHTLY TIM WOULD FUCK HER NIGHTLY SHE WOULD SHOW UP THERE WITH NO MONEY IN HER POCKET, DO SOME SORT OF MAGIC TRICK, AND BE ON HER MERRY WAY. SHE WOULD COME TO MY HOUSE, LATE AT NIGHT, VERY FUCKING LATE AT NIGHT, AND OFFER ME A DRINK. SHE WOULD OFFER ME PEACE. SHE OFFERED THINGS THAT PEOPLE DON�T GENERALLY OFFER. Let me get one thing straight. I will never, ever, ever, ever, say anything that means anything important in here. I have this journal on my hard drive. I keep it away from nosey people. There are a lot of you nosey people out there. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. If I wanted people to know what I was thinking, then I would let them read it. Can you imagine actually taking an online journal serious? I can�t imagine it. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. It�s like putting a password on it. Why would you do that? , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. The noise out there is immense. If there isn�t something or someone out there, I will pay someone 9 million dollars. If I go into that bank tomorrow, the credit union that is. I will bring a cake or something and say things like �don�t take my car away, you have such beautiful eyes� I really know how to knock women out. Ask them. Ask the women of my life. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. Ask them how I treat(ed) them. Ask them. I�m good when I�m being a good father. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I am going to take a tour, a tour of the inside of my brain right. Seriously though, Ask the women of my life Ask the women of my life Ask the women of my life. I have so little to do, and so much to say. Who wants to tell the truth anymore. Who the fuck are people who think they are honest because they can voice their opinions. I could give a fuck about opinions. I could give a fuck about school, and this persons issues with their girlfriend, and that persons issues with their job. I am here to talk some sort of nonsense when I need to. This release. The new one. I will make a fair trade. I will no longer sacrifice myself to this. My eyes get heavy this late, but it feels so fucking good to be alive right now. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Please don�t trust me, any of you. Please don�t. I hope thye sort of stop or something. I am no good. Really. There is no reason. I have a sense of humor, and apparently, I am a sweet boy. I always want the woman to get off before me. I just feel sick right now. I feel sick, and nobody believes me. check this out. Soundtrack � Jack Teagarden � Makin� Friends If I didn�t have $5000 worth of hard work on magnetic tape in the back seat of my car tonight, I considered driving my car into a tree on the way home. They are going to repossess it if I don�t pay it soon. Unfortunately, I was going to give a friend some money tomorrow night, and pay my phone bill, and maybe buy some drugs, so won�t be paying it. Anyway, so my rationale was, if I run my car into a tree and total it, I have the option of totaling it, as well as the chance of serious harm to my body, which was the more delicious option I was looking at in the face. Today I had this pain in the left side of my chest for a little while, and I had to sit down. I ignore this shit, hoping to perhaps fall over so I don�t have to finish all the paper work on my desk, or pay anymore bills, or deal with people. Emotionally, and physically, I purposely get myself into shit that is really, really bad for me. Today, I told Reina that I am really fucked up, and I�m really not a nice person. She didn�t believe me. I wish I could admit some of the shit I do week by week, day by day. My karma is certainly in awful shape. I stole tens of thousands of dollars before, I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I just don�t have any respect for anyone basically. I�d like to think I could cheat on girls, because I don�t trust them. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I don�t chalk it up as �I hate girls� though, I just don�t put any faith or hope into anything, or anyone anymore. I never will again. There is no possible fucking way, at 32, I am going to learn to trust someone I am close to like that. People will tell me to just do it. You have to just learn to trust people. Sorry, it doesn�t happen like that in hell, only in heaven. I need to get fucked up right now. I need to get fucked up right now. I am going out of my fucking head right now. I have been talking to myself over and over. Everyone at work keeps asking me if everything is okay, as I sit at my desk and stare off into space, not doing a fucking thing all day. I want someone to shoot me in the face when I come home at night. Those fucks outside, I want them to finally just come in here and stab me to death, like Nicole Simpson. I have no gate though. I ain�t fucking no big football star. I want to live forever. I want to live like this forever. I want to always feel like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like how this feels. I like when my head makes me think too much. I like when they tell me one thing, and I hear something else. The band is doing great, we made a great recording that everyone loves and wants to show people. I wish I could play it for you, reader. Send me 20 dollars, and�my chest hurts again. Perhaps because I have smoked 5 cigarettes in a row while writing this relatively short thing. I hate girls. I love fucking. I love women. I like the company of girls more often than not. I like how I can feel comfortable and always have something to talk about with the girls. I like that I can go home and sleep nice when I spend a nice night out with a friend who happens to be a female. I like the company. I like the boys, not in a gay kind of way. The thought of lesbians, gay men, etc. makes me want to throw up sometimes. I can�t get turned on by it. I don�t hate gay people, I just think fuck. I magin imagine that if I make it through the yrea I wil make it thourh the year. They wanted to take us to eat, and we declined, we were tired. I fucked this guys wife. That night. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Why all of a sudden is there a rash of children abductions across the country right now? I think the media is just out of shit to talk about, so they are finding more stories to tell. This shit probably has always been happening. It�s just, why the fuck would some guy in Maine, care about someone being abducted in South Dakota? Well, if he ha sany sort of ethical bone in his body, then of course he would care. SO they tell it like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I looked in the mirror today and said I tell about ten lies a day. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I then went out into the office and didn�t look at the ass of the human resources woman. This is a lie, as I like to look at her ass. I am a liar, and I love to XXXXXXXXXXXX. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. South Dakota. Check this out though: I am in this karma thing right now where I hurt someone, then I get hurt. Right now, I am the one about to be hurt. I have no idea what I should wear. What should I wear to the hurting? I am getting fat, and haven�t exercised in months. I will die like this. Fortunately, I am praying to someone that I live forever. How I got sucked into this is beyond me. I don�t want to get hurt again. This is how I do it though. I pay money. I might as well take the hammer over there, and bash myself in the pelvic bone with it. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Listening to the words that come out of my mouth, how fucking full of shit can one person be? Let�s sing about getting high, and about some stupid fucking girl that broke you for a week. I�m over her. I�m over her. I�m over her. See? They are chasing Seymour Cassel with a handgun, they will shoot him is he is not careful. I wonder if Nina hit her brother again tonight. I mean the other way around. He hit her. They make promises, me, them, and none of them are ever fulfilled. I got away with murder for a few months, and then they found out, trned me ovr to the police. The girls who judge that I no longer see or talk to, they judge me. Looking at the facts though, yeah, I�m dead wrong. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like the 4AM air in here. I just decided to get fucked up, so I inhaled Glade. Well, I sprayed it in here as the smoke is getting to my pet. My pet. My pet. Say that. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. �this is bad, so bad. When I am not fucked up now, I feel so fucking fucked up. When I am not fucked up on something, I feel fucked up. Who the fuck invented that rule, was that that jesssus guy? There�s not even a spec of resin in here. The expensice people though, they gave me things. Just a tast. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. The best way for me to avoid issues is to avoid issues. I like to think that if I die tonight, like in my sleep or something, they will breathe a sigh of relief, hence me smoking a pack of cigarettes in an hour. I like to think that if I keep gaining weight , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I will eventually be so unhealthy. I do so many unhealthy things emotionally. I get attached to people I don�t know. I develop feelings for people who don�t really exist. I love ghosts. I LOVE GHOITS. GHOISTS GHOSTS I MEAN. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. SHE WOULD SHOW UP AT THE HOUSE TO FUCK TIM NIGHTLY TIM WOULD FUCK HER NIGHTLY SHE WOULD SHOW UP THERE WITH NO MONEY IN HER POCKET, DO SOME SORT OF MAGIC TRICK, AND BE ON HER MERRY WAY. SHE WOULD COME TO MY HOUSE, LATE AT NIGHT, VERY FUCKING LATE AT NIGHT, AND OFFER ME A DRINK. SHE WOULD OFFER ME PEACE. SHE OFFERED THINGS THAT PEOPLE DON�T GENERALLY OFFER. Let me get one thing straight. I will never, ever, ever, ever, say anything that means anything important in here. I have this journal on my hard drive. I keep it away from nosey people. There are a lot of you nosey people out there. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. If I wanted people to know what I was thinking, then I would let them read it. Can you imagine actually taking an online journal serious? I can�t imagine it. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. It�s like putting a password on it. Why would you do that? , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. The noise out there is immense. If there isn�t something or someone out there, I will pay someone 9 million dollars. If I go into that bank tomorrow, the credit union that is. I will bring a cake or something and say things like �don�t take my car away, you have such beautiful eyes� I really know how to knock women out. Ask them. Ask the women of my life. , I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. Ask them how I treat(ed) them. Ask them. I�m good when I�m being a good father. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I am going to take a tour, a tour of the inside of my brain right. Seriously though, Ask the women of my life Ask the women of my life Ask the women of my life. I have so little to do, and so much to say. Who wants to tell the truth anymore. Who the fuck are people who think they are honest because they can voice their opinions. I could give a fuck about opinions. I could give a fuck about school, and this persons issues with their girlfriend, and that persons issues with their job. I am here to talk some sort of nonsense when I need to. This release. The new one. I will make a fair trade. I will no longer sacrifice myself to this. My eyes get heavy this late, but it feels so fucking good to be alive right now. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Please don�t trust me, any of you. Please don�t. I hope thye sort of stop or something. I am no good. Really. There is no reason. I have a sense of humor, and apparently, I am a sweet boy. I always want the woman to get off before me. I just feel sick right now. I feel sick, and nobody believes me. check this out. Soundtrack � Jack Teagarden � Makin� Friends If I didn�t have $5000 worth of hard work on magnetic tape in the back seat of my car tonight, I considered driving my car into a tree on the way home. They are going to repossess it if I don�t pay it soon. Unfortunately, I was going to give a friend some money tomorrow night, and pay my phone bill, and maybe buy some drugs, so won�t be paying it. Anyway, so my rationale was, if I run my car into a tree and total it, I have the option of totaling it, as well as the chance of serious harm to my body, which was the more delicious option I was looking at in the face. Today I had this pain in the left side of my chest for a little while, and I had to sit down. I ignore this shit, hoping to perhaps fall over so I don�t have to finish all the paper work on my desk, or pay anymore bills, or deal with people. Emotionally, and physically, I purposely get myself into shit that is really, really bad for me. Today, I told Reina that I am really fucked up, and I�m really not a nice person. She didn�t believe me. I wish I could admit some of the shit I do week by week, day by day. My karma is certainly in awful shape. I stole tens of thousands of dollars before, I�ve cheated on almost every girl I�ve gone out with except for my last one. The only reason I do is because they all eventually cheat on you. Actually, no I don�t cheat on girls. I just don�t have any respect for anyone basically. I�d like to think I could cheat on girls, because I don�t trust them. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I don�t chalk it up as �I hate girls� though, I just don�t put any faith or hope into anything, or anyone anymore. I never will again. There is no possible fucking way, at 32, I am going to learn to trust someone I am close to like that. People will tell me to just do it. You have to just learn to trust people. Sorry, it doesn�t happen like that in hell, only in heaven. I need to get fucked up right now. I need to get fucked up right now. I am going out of my fucking head right now. I have been talking to myself over and over. Everyone at work keeps asking me if everything is okay, as I sit at my desk and stare off into space, not doing a fucking thing all day. I want someone to shoot me in the face when I come home at night. Those fucks outside, I want them to finally just come in here and stab me to death, like Nicole Simpson. 666 666 666 666 666 I have no gate though. I ain�t fucking no big football star. I want to live forever. I want to live like this forever. I want to always feel like this. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I like how this feels. I like when my head makes me think too much. I like when they tell me one thing, and I hear something else. The band is doing great, we made a great recording that everyone loves and wants to show people. I wish I could play it for you, reader. Send me 20 dollars, and�my chest hurts again. Perhaps because I have smoked 5 cigarettes in a row while writing this relatively short thing. I hate girls. I love fucking. I love women. I like the company of girls more often than not. I like how I can feel comfortable and always have something to talk about with the girls. I like that I can go home and sleep nice when I spend a nice night out with a friend who happens to be a female. I like the company. I like the boys, not in a gay kind of way. The thought of lesbians, gay men, etc. makes me want to throw up sometimes. I can�t get turned on by it. I don�t hate gay people, I just think fuck. I magin imagine that if I make it through the yrea I wil make it thourh the year. They wanted to take us to eat, and we declined, we were tired. I fucked this guys wife. That night. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. They�ve all lied and cheated on me. Every single girl I have dated or been steady with has cheated on me, or lied about important things. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Why all of a sudden is there a rash of children abductions across the country right now? just THINK THINK THINK DON'T THINK THINK THINK

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