the days feel the same every week. this is what happens on mondays this is what happens on tuesdays this is what happens on wednesdays this is what happens on thursdays this is what happens on fridays this is what happens on saturdays this is what happens on sundays this is what happens on mondays this is what happens on tuesdays this is what happens on wednesdays this is what happens on thursdays this is what happens on fridays this is what happens on saturdays this is what happens on sundays this is what happens on mondays this is what happens on tuesdays this is what happens on wednesdays this is what happens on thursdays this is what happens on fridays this is what happens on saturdays this is what happens on sundays this is what happens on mondays this is what happens on tuesdays this is what happens on wednesdays this is what happens on thursdays this is what happens on fridays this is what happens on saturdays this is what happens on sundays this is what happens on mondays this is what happens on tuesdays this is what happens on wednesdays this is what happens on thursdays this is what happens on fridays this is what happens on saturdays this is what happens on sundays this is what happens on mondays this is what happens on tuesdays this is what happens on wednesdays this is what happens on thursdays this is what happens on fridays this is what happens on saturdays this is what happens on sundays. yet i can't fall into a real exciting period right now, nothing is really satisfying me, work, the band, etc it's just not enough to make me smile in the morning and look forward to being outside. people say that in boston even beans do it mmmm. speaking of boston, boston was a hot fucking place to be today, sure it was only 85 degrees or so, it was hot and it felt damn good, so yeah, there is something good going on. i like the feel of the evening in the summer. it's better in salem downtown, i enjoy walking on the cobblestones and hearing the bands in the bars plugging away at redundant 12 bar blues standards. i was supposed to meet some friends after rehearsal this evening down there, i went and walked by a few times and nobody was around. i'm used to this now anyway. opinions always differ in the summer. i'm safer at home drinking ice water then at that place wasting money on alcohol and cigarettes. i'm not even going to bother making phone calls and meetings anymore it ends in nothing anyway. how are you i'm great?

I had a dream last night that I was at a club in Boston and the band was playing, and upon closer inspection it was a much older Poison doing some sort of reunion tour thingy. i basically remember being with a girl with tons of hairspray in her hair and tight jeans...can't remember what song it was, definitely not "Every Rose Has It's Thorn", as they were rocking the place hardcore, maybe "Talk Dirty To Me", or "I Want Action". I can't imagine what it would be like to see Poison live, lot's of those girls I loved in high school and guys with mullets drinking Red Dog and yelling "whoooh!".

I can't remember voices or faces at this point just ideas of what people are like being in and out of touch every other day is hard for me to do i think this happens to everyone though sometimes you can't place the face of someone very close to you it's strange when that happens when i go away this happens i have to call from time to time to get that familiar feeling again. it's all so plain and dry right now i can't even think straight. is there a reason the birds are still making noise at 11:30?

before & after